Sometimes medical students and housestaff forget why they decided to become physicians. And then sometimes patients remind them why. A student of solace and love
I was a fourth-year medical student when I met the two patients. The rotation, a rite of passage, is the month or two during the last year of medical school when we get our first true hint of what it feels like to be a doctor. We take full responsibility for our patients and make day-to-day decisions, with close supervision by our superiors. It is also our prime introduction to "scut work." Scut work runs the gamut, and may include tracking down lab results, calling an outside doctor for a fax of a patient’s MRI scan or arranging a patient’s discharge with social workers. Scut work involves the nitty-gritty of making things happen in the hospital for patients. During the middle of the rotation, my enthusiasm started to dwindle. The scut work was draining. It was intellectually empty, and the long hours — staying up for 30 hours straight every fourth night — began to wear me down. That was, until I met these patients and, more precisely, their families.
Stephen Covey, in his 7 habits of highly effective people, reminds us in Habit 2: Begin with the end in mind. Medical students often have a difficult time remembering this. Their day to day life has great stress, and they focus often on the things that cause that stress. They start school with altruism, but we (medical educators) and the "system" often beat it out of them. Sometimes it takes a fresh look at why to place "scut work" in its proper understanding. Speaking about a spouse caring for her sick husband:
I drew inspiration from her at a time when some of my own was waning. She stayed by his side, sleeping on the hard hospital floor every night without complaints. She listened to him moan in pain all day. She made him feel less like a hospital boarder and more like a regular person — he was always clean-shaven. One morning, I walked into the room, which was perfumed with the refreshing scent of Neutrogena. She had moved him to the bedside commode and set up a makeshift bathing station. The patient smiled, looking fresh and clean and proud. The meticulous care that these patients’ families gave their loved ones was an extraordinary sight to witness. Neither patient, however, sang their caregivers’ praise. She was too tired — and could barely talk through her tracheotomy; he was too consumed by worry. Yet the caregivers kept on. They knew their loved ones appreciated and needed them. In that way, the families helped me put the thankless daily grind into perspective. In the complicated world of hospital care, every task makes a big difference, no matter how small or unrecognized. The serial phone calls down to the ultrasound department, the letter-writing to Medi-Cal for emergency insurance, this was my part. These seemingly mundane tasks could make a marked difference just as cleaning a wound or bathing a patient would.
Scut work has an undesirable connotation. This slang does communicate, but I believe it communicates the wrong idea. Caring for patients requires multiple skills. Like detective work, success occurs from a series of persistent steps. As I reread this medical student’s prose, I smile. I believe she has started to understand what it really means to become a physician.
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2 Responses to Reminding us why
Jeff
August 10th, 2005 at 12:17 pm
I have spent almost 1 year of the last 20 years in the hospital. Combining all of my hospitalizations in that time frame is very close to a year, so I can relate to this.
Your last sentence about what it really means to be a physician was astute and you hit the nail on the head. THIS is what care is about, perhaps even more so than a diagnosis or an application or attempt at a cure.
2000 years ago, someone wrote: If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but do not have love, I have become a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. If I…know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing…Love never fails; but if…there is knowledge, it will be done away…But now faith, hope, love, continue in these three; but the greatest of these is love.
So what if a doctor has great knowledge and power but not love in these little things? In the very end, the patient will die anyway, eventually. But what remains is the love that the doc did.
And true love should incorporate diagnosis, cure, knowledge and power into the process of personal care and not separate it. Detached Doctors are merely mechanics and paycheck takers, not healers.
Greg P
August 11th, 2005 at 6:12 am
When I am seeing my patients, I try to imagine them as my mother, my aunt, my spouse, my child.
That way it becomes easy to sit and listen, and then listen some more. If I am not sure what to do, I say that, but I try not to remove all hope that somehow, today might be a tolerable or even good day.
I cradle their hand in mine, I stroke their hair, because these are the signs that someone cares about them. When you truly care about your patients, these actions are natural, come easy, and are always the right thing to do.
If I cannot do these things for my patients, there is no reason for me to expect them for myself when I might need them in the future.